Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Holy Apathy

In the middle of last week my first cousin’s dad expired. My cousin the only son of his parents handled the situation very bravely. To begin with his dad wasn’t suffering from any ailment nor did he have any vices. And moreover he was only 59 which is definitely not an age where one would be expected to die and his son ie my cousin was just finding his footing in the real world. This incident had me marvel at the uncertainty of the phenomenon that is life and the certainty of the reality called death.

Are we so vulnerable that we just stay put and watch as mute audience as the maker unfolds his unholy death dance upon us? Of course we are , but then once again I began wondering where the hell is justice in the act of the maker. Call him God you may, with our best interests at heart but the sheer apathy of the creator towards situations like these makes me question a lot of things including the high handedness of the creator.

This writing may definitely seem to be written in sheer anger or helplessness. Absolutely Not!!! Anger a bit , yeah , not helplessness. The bad part doesn’t end here. There’s an unending queue of mourners who generally think that its futile to visit unless you make the bereaved cry. And then there another set of bastards who see this opportunity to squeeze money out of you claiming some ungodly situation as in 3 people in the family due to expire if a ritual worth 25 k is not performed and crap. There are also people who try to tell you to move ahead. Honestly, at times like these I would rather beat the crap out of these well wishers. More than 95% of them are just there to see the fun and the gossip about it later. As in my cousins case I found out with a couple of people , after they left they were saying “his dad died and he’s sporting a goatee” . now isn’t that childish? If the creator is all encompassing and all knowing and omnipresent I reckon he should just exterminate such anomalies. Hell man this guy didn’t even know what was gonna happen, it happened that fast .

The most popular line “everything happens , happens for good”. Yeah absolutely , agreed, a guy feeding a family of 4 loses his arm or leg in an accident and his children and family are left to starve. Furthermore at the end of years of starvation and hardships , they end their lives coz they’re left with nothing. Now if that is the so called “good” there is nothing more to say to that. Extending this situation a bit further, there are people who come up with lame excuses “karma and further crap”. Can somebody please explain me why do you have to maim me for something I don’t even know I did? This is definitely not justice, not to the logical human mind nor to the person who underwent these hardships. Justice doesn’t exist above the stratosphere I guess. And if the “creator” is omnipresent then he’s gotta be blind right?

Raving and ranting as this writeup may seem, it just a lot of pent up anger. Anger not at myself or directed at anyone. But anger at the sadist up above as the same people who claim to be believers say “who to humko kathputli ki tarah nachata hai”. Isn’t that sadism enough?

Picture this, an orphan is picked up by a couple (not childless, they did it out of empathy for the orphan). I reckon that’s good enough. Within 3 days the entire family except the orphan is killed in a car crash. That is the second time the orphan is orphaned. And he’s not old enough to have done any bad deeds. Then why? Do we need so say anything more?

-The Antagonist

NB:Mind you this is not a piece of fiction this is something that has happened. The orphan later grew up on his own and later was mentored (not adopted) by a gem of a family and is now a definite success. The everlasting scar given to him by (you know who) on his psyche however forbids him from calling the people “parents”.

5 Comments:

At 12:19 PM, Blogger tear said...

hey anta
i am speechless and can tell u i have felt the same but no pain can be compared with another nor can any anger be felt as another. This is something i had written a long time back...pls read it would want to know ur opinion.
http://doomtimes.rediffblogs.com/
http://papaimissyou.rediffblogs.com/

PS pls giv an extended hug to ur cousin the next time u see it beleive me that is one thing that helps..i am not saying this as a funda of jhaphi or anything but it is reassuring to have that kind of genuine support that i know u do extend..thx fr bringing out some thoughts that i had stiffled back in time.... hugssss

 
At 4:37 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

y no posts!!??

 
At 10:36 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

aa

 
At 10:39 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey tear... sure.. i'll do that

 
At 7:19 AM, Blogger tear said...

hey antya and komodo thx for the comments.. it was on 9th January 2001 that it had happen but ironical that one can still recall the details ofthe day. Time is a heale and i know it has somewhat healed but its one of those things that just cant fade away. Somehow there is a hindi song that does sum it up
"Karoge yaad to her baat pe yaad aayegeee"
Anyhow...well me shifted to a new job recently so settling in how r things with u"

 

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